Easter in Cambodia isn't exactly like Easter in Canada - it's a little same, same but different (which is a popular t-shirt saying here).
Today, we had an Easter service at church. Most of the songs were in Khmer, so I can't necessarily sing along, but I love hearing the Cambodian people worshipping God in their language. We had a potluck lunch afterwards, featuring rice, curry, and stirfried chicken/veggies, so not exactly a "traditional Easter meal", but still delicious! Karen and I were chatting about how the cultural differences are clear in the way the potluck was set up. There was a long table with all the food, and people serving, but there was no semblance of a line. You just kind of went up and pushed your way through to get what you wanted. That's usually how it tends to work here - if you wait patiently in line, you will be waiting forever. And come to think of it, that's basically how Cambodian traffic patterns work too! So some things are different from how life works in Canada... but other things are same, same! We met at church for the purpose of celebrating Jesus' death and resurrection, and then shared food in community. My family is far away, but I'm so thankful that community is found all over the world.
I have two months left of teaching here, and then Karen and I will travel to Vietnam for a little while before I head back to Canada for my beautiful friend Cassy's wedding in June! It is really hard for me to wrap my head around the fact that I have just two months of left of "this life" - two months left of everything that has been my world for the past two years - the culture, the friends, the food, the way of life. My plan is to tell my students this week that I won't be coming back next year, and I know it's going to be hard news for them to hear, especially those who I've taught for 2 years. They will miss me, and I will miss them, but I am comforted by the fact that I will hopefully get to see them again - maybe come back for a visit in a few years and see how they've grown! It has been such a joy to be a part of their lives.
I know that I will get questions like "But why are you leaving, Miss Alyssa?" "Other teachers are staying - why can't you stay too?" And those questions are hard to answer when I don't really even know! I don't know exactly why I'm leaving, and I don't really know what my next step will be. I have peace about closing this chapter though, and since I made that decision, I haven't really looked back. New adventures and challenges await me on the other side of the world.
I have had some hard days over the past two years for SURE... times when it felt like I would never recover from the exhaustion I felt, times when it seemed like the school year (or even the day of school) would never be over, times when I felt like I couldn't handle one more minute of the intense heat... and as I've said before, my natural instinct is always to want it to be over, and to wait impatiently for the "next thing" - that time of life when I won't have any conflict to deal with or hard stuff to wrestle through. I have started realizing though that if that's my attitude, I'll be waiting forever. Something that I heard somewhere a little awhile ago (not sure where?) that has really stuck with me is that this season is not just something to "get through", but this is where life is. It's easier to see how true that is now that my time left here is coming to a close so soon.
So here's to me trying to treasure every moment I have left in this beautiful country.
See you soon, Canada peeps!
I have had some hard days over the past two years for SURE... times when it felt like I would never recover from the exhaustion I felt, times when it seemed like the school year (or even the day of school) would never be over, times when I felt like I couldn't handle one more minute of the intense heat... and as I've said before, my natural instinct is always to want it to be over, and to wait impatiently for the "next thing" - that time of life when I won't have any conflict to deal with or hard stuff to wrestle through. I have started realizing though that if that's my attitude, I'll be waiting forever. Something that I heard somewhere a little awhile ago (not sure where?) that has really stuck with me is that this season is not just something to "get through", but this is where life is. It's easier to see how true that is now that my time left here is coming to a close so soon.
So here's to me trying to treasure every moment I have left in this beautiful country.
See you soon, Canada peeps!